
It's the first day of Mommy on maternity leave with Dad being back at work.
Every morning I wake up, step out of bed.... onto dirty diapers. How many you ask? Not the two I remember changing in the middle of the night but four. Where do the other diapers come from? There is only one answer. I'm losing my mind or I guess there could be a second possibility: I'm changing diapers in my sleep.
My lack of sleep during my usual hours is making me loopy obviously. As soon as I'm ready for bed Ivy is up and I'm grouch mode. She wants to eat but is full and hates her pacifier. Sometimes walking helps sometimes it doesn't. Welcome to motherhood, again.
I didn't realize mommy brain could get worse. My memory is shot. So maybe I do wake up to change the diapers, but of course I can't remember it. I can barely remember simple words. For example, to my older kids I said today: take the clothes out of the dishwasher. Of course they looked at me like I was crazy.... but I sounded correct in my brain. (Luckily here were no clothes in the dishwasher, only dishes)
i hope theres a res a mommy out there that can tell me it get better. Will my brain heal?